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5th September 2002

9:39am: Last night, at bed-time, I heard Zakk sobbing into his pillow. It is a very difficult thing for a mother to hear her child cry. I thought, "Yes, my son, there is suffering in this world, in your life, and i cannot protect you." What a sad and helpless feeling. I did ask if there was anything i could do to help him and he said he didn't think so. I quietly advised that he continue to cry it out, that crying was not "bad" or "weak", that it was, in fact, cleansing. Soon afterwards Ziggy the kitty went in and i heard Zakk say, in an upbeat voice, "C'mon Ziggy.. here kitty.. c'mon zigilig..." And we are on the upswing again.

It never ends. Thank goodness....
10:29am: So I spent all 4 days of Labor day wknd at BUMBERSHOOT- a massive NW music festival. We drummed on & off for 10 hours a day or so. Some highlights:

~ playing Malinke rhythms in the parade each day with friends while being followed by a couple dozen giant colorful butterflies.

~ seeing a little dog tied to the rail where we played and watching an endless stream of people stop to pet him.

~ Watching Michael watching a clown dancing.

~ Watching Ricardo watching a vivacious asian man bubbling over with joy at having his picture taken with our friends.

~ playing in the Anarchy jam (an open drum jam where hardly anyone knows how to play) and having a tiny teetering baby crawl up to me and perch precariously on my right knee while beaming at me playing.

~ singing Pink Floyds' "Money" with Jon while waiting in line at the cash machine.

~ playing krin with Gonya- she was all lit up like a little kid on Christmas and has the most radiant smile evah.

~ watching Frank dancing unabashedly in the middle of the Samba performers.

And, of course, PLAYING MY FLACKING ASS OFF WITH PURE UNFETTERED JOY FOR FOUR DAYZ STRAIGHT WITH THE GREATEST PEOPLE INNADA WORLD!!!!
It was like living in a village surrounded by warm loving supportive people and my bent and battered frame is EVER-GRATEFUL for all of this BLISS called MY LIFE. Mwuuaah! xoxox
11:17am: If your everyday practice is to open to all your emotions,
to all the people you meet, to all the situations
you encounter, without closing down, trusting that
you can do that--then that will take you as far as you
can go. And then you'll understand all the teachings
that anyone has ever taught.


~ Pema Chodron.
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